A cErtain s0rr0w tAt i wiSh t0 hiDe..

There is Certain s0rr0w in My haRt tat i Wish t0 hiDe...
Painful Mem0ries...hAuntiNg t0ts...0verfl0win teArs...A br0ken hart...N a l0st gal...
tHat all i can desCribe mySelf as...All thEse happeN in tHe namE 0f l0ve...

A yeAr baCk..i mEt this guy...We met bY fAte...And We gave 0urselves a cHance t0 gEt t0gether aNd t0 see where life tAkes us t0..i Fell in l0ve...And He claimed hE fell iN l0ve..bUt thEse wAs Wad hAppEn...

I l0ved him..He t0rtureD me..I l0ved him...He batteRed me Up..I l0ved hiM...He AbusEd me in eVeryWay...I l0ved him..He failEd t0 unDerstaNd Tat i waS n0t a d0ll n tAt i wAs actUally a gal wh0 desErved t0 bE l0ved iN rEturN...i l0ved him...He made fake pr0mises t0 chAnge anD he Hurt mE even m0re...I still l0ved Him...He hAd me as his Slave And behaVed lyk A beAst And thE neXt thinG i knew...I was lyin d0wn theRe..in bl0od...BrUiseS...pAin....ExpeCtin tAt eveN n0w...After seeIn thE staTe i'm in..He will chAnge and Everythin w0uld Get bAck t0 n0rmal...But n0...mY TrusT wAs all in Vein...And thEn....After a vEry l0ng tiMe...When i Had tAken the first Step t0 m0ve 0n in lYf...He l0ved me...But i lEft...
0n My paRt...i Had n0 m0re l0ve t0 give him...he br0ke d0wn all The little h0pe..Dreams tat i had...

I w0re A maSk and CheatEd evEry1 wh0m i knEw...i Gave Every1 Fake smiles...prEtendEd tat my Lyf Was GreAt!!..Alth0ugh it Was upsiDe d0wn...Cried in Silence...c0ns0led myseLf in mY m0st DespeRate m0ments...TriEd t0 igN0re The liMeligHt...But i c0uld n0t laSt the Drama f0r l0ng..i g0t cAught...And Wen tAt happEned...i Realise i Had Falled dEep int0 my 0wn GravE and The 0nli tHing i c0uld d0 wAs t0 Cry my hArt 0ut and Get d0ne 0ver Wif wAd haD haPpened And m0ve 0n in Lyf...

Juz aS i wAs m0ving...i ReAlise Tat his Shad0w f0ll0wEd me...It haD trAcked Me d0wn n i Was d0omeD!!TheRe wAs n0 wHere tAt i c0uld p0ssibly Run t0..He has Pr0mised t0 be my Shad0w f0r aS l0ng as he can t0 make my lyf misErable...

Till tHis m0ment it timE...i n0e tAt he is sTill f0ll0win me aNd n0maTa wHere i g0...hE will cuM finDin f0r me...

I've tried my beZ t0 m0ve 0n in lyf bUt the faCt tat my haRt will always be w0unded is undeniable...A certain w0und tat cAn Neva bE Healed due t0 the am0unt 0f sufferin i went thru al0ne....n0mata h0w haRd i'm tryin t0 f0rget everythin...I juz dun sEem t0 be able t0 f0rGet anithin...i Cry myself t0 bEd...f0rce myselF t0 laugh..Wad m0re cAn i d0...I'm living a fake life...

But in tHese fAke lyf...There iS 0ni 1 trutH...i'm still Yearnin f0r tat 0ne s0ul..wh0m i n0e..havE beEn waitiN there f0r me patiEntly and Silently...still l0ving mE despite thE fact tAt i've m0ved 0n and SufferEd the w0rst AspeCts 0f a galfren...He will bE the Medicine t0 my br0ken Hart..
I can Assure Myself Tat...

i dun mean t0 hurt ani1 wif Wad i'm sayin...but this is Wad i rEally fEel..i dun Wanna liE t0 ani1 by Sayin tAt i've g0tten 0ver EverythiN Wen i'm still suFferin in sIlence...
I believe Time will heal w0unds...But eVen theN...it 0nly ReferS t0 s0me w0unds...